Sunday 18 November 2012

where am I heading too?

I have been asking myself where am I heading too right now. 
With history that I know, I really do not know how I should feel. The security is fading away. Been really emotional for the past few weeks? All I can do is to hide. I cant question I cant ask much I can find out much too. I'm afraid that it will fade even more. What else can I do? 
sigh~ Did I made the right decision? 

Wednesday 10 October 2012

Insecure

What a good actor. I'm feeling insecure already. :) i dont know what you did or do behind me. Anyway.. Nothing to do with me.. after so many years i felt the same. I wish I didnt hear or see what i heard and saw.. O well..

Hello peeps!
I'm so busy with assignments and preparing for exams..
Will update more soon after exams! Xxxx! :)

Tuesday 9 October 2012

Why?!

Heard something which I dont wish to hear.. Saw something which I dont wish to see. I guess until now you still dont know me well enough that what I like and dislike. One word.. Attitude. :) Guess I should not allow it to bother me. O wait.. It didnt cause I know it will happened and my guess was right. :) so yah! :)

Wednesday 26 September 2012

abc

Aftertodayiamconfusedonceagain.sigh~ No longer know how to express myself anymore.
Been really busy with assignment. Update soon on friday perhaps.
See you peeps! <3

Thursday 20 September 2012

Chillout

Hello,

Assignment is driving me nuts. I don't know what I'm writing, what I'm doing and what I'm thinking. Feel like giving up. First time feeling so worried. :S

Anyway, Half way doing with assignment decided to get out the house to chill with the babes.The girls have yet to try the fried mars and snicker bars from Tom Dick & Harry's Bar so I decided to bring them there. The food there is awesome and filling. There's 4 of us we ordered 2 main course and 1 dessert and we're darn full already. We had great time catching up with each other and talking about some serious stuff. :) Recently I realize that my friends all begin to talk about their future career, future stuff and all. I begin to feel we're a little more mature. :)

There! Our order.
Chicken Mushroom Pie, Fried mars and snicker bars with ice cream & pork burger

After consuming so much of calories, we decided to just throw away our diet plan and go ahead with more calories which is the BEER! We headed to beer factory as the beer there is freaking cheap. We had like more than 10 pints of beers. This is crazy. 







Emotionally I'm done. Mentally I'm drained. Spiritually I'm dead. Physically I smile. that's me.

Wednesday 19 September 2012

Weird yet so real

I had weird dream yet I feel is so real. I asked myself, is God trying to tell  me something through it? I wish it was real for certain part and not for certain part. I'm even more confused right now. I already said I am stepping back and pressing on breaks already. Yet why such dream? :( sigh.. This is so disturbing.. :(


Some people come into our lives and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never ever the same

Tuesday 18 September 2012

I know what I should do

Whenever I get near, I lose that inner voice that tells me this is wrong and I go through with it all anyway. I hear the blunt truth from everyone, that the same will happen to me. I just can't understand why I have to go through this. I am just so confused and everyone tells me  the same thing..
But today.. 

Today I realize something.. that I should really let go and move on and should not let it bother me anymore. Knowing that the result might not be what I wanted, so why wait? Why so silly? I guess I need to wake up and get back to reality. :)  

I will always remember this quote as it hurts me a lot when someone did something hurtful to me. Therefore, I will try not to hurt anyone on purpose. :)

Always put yourself in the other's shoes. 
If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.


Monday 17 September 2012

I should do whatever I want to do

whydoihavetofeelthisoverandoveragain.thisissotorturing.iaintknowhowtohandleitanymore.allicandoistoignoreandkeepmyselfbusyandputoonasmileandtelltheworldthatiamalright.dontaskmewhybecauseiwillnotansweranyoneofyou.isjustme.soleavemealonemaybe?

Anyway, 
Should I get a second ear piercing right above my first? I'm thinking to get one tho.. 
I might want to go get my second piercing to feel some pain.. Feel like torturing my own body with some pain. My first one I got it when I was very young probably I don't remember that it hurts so why not try the second time and feel it once again. :) I shall find time. I should do whatever I want to do. Do what I want to do and do it for myself. Those are the reasons to make changes in ourselves whether it is having piercing or anything else, it should always be for MYSELF! :) 

BUT WAIT! 


................ I need to think of my future profession. ._. my current ministry. BLAH! 
Every single thing that I want to do especially for my appearance I will need to think of the consequences especially on my ministry. At times I'm really frustrated. To do or not to do. so annoying at times.. ._. But I always tell myself is okay.. Is where I chose to be. whatever it is.. I shall decide soon! Since piercing can be hidden. :P 


till then..

Sunday 16 September 2012

Sunday (16/9)

SELAMAT HARI MALAYSIA PEEPS! :) 



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Sunday! 
I woke up feeling empty-ness in me. I wonder why. I've been having this feeling for the past few days. Maybe thats the reason why I am emo-ing. Yes, I am emo. :( sigh~ 

I guess I know I gotta pull myself back with the feelings I am having right now. This is a really hard thing for most people to do. It seems that I trained myself to think think think so much that I cant get my mind stop doing it. This is especially hard when I want to sleep or rest or even relax. It's like a really annoying person inside me that just won't shut up about something you don't want to hear, but that person is stuck inside your own head. I guess I am dealing with lots of emotional highs and lows. One minute I might feel great, and the next I will feel sad and tearful. This kind of shift in my mood is SO-NO-OK! ._. Being human is an emotional experience - we all have our moments of happiness, sadness, anger, depression, anxiety and a host of others feelings. How do we deal with those  emotions? Why are some feelings harder to handle than others? sigh~


All I know now.. I need to step on BREAK! break feli break! :( 
The only comfort I can find right now is from musics.. I can't post emo status on any social website I have simply cause I do not one people to know what I'm going through wont want them to worry about me. Or maybe I should say.. I care how others look at me. :S So I stopped.

Life is about trusting our feelings, taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the past. 
I was given this life because I'm strong enough to live it? 

 

I miss broga hill's view.
I guess I should go there again soon. :)  

till then.. 

Saturday 15 September 2012

Lazy Saturday

Indeed it was a lazy Saturday for me. Usually on Saturday I will be busy with my church activities. But since tmr is a public holiday, my leader decided to give us a break. So there's no meeting for today! It does not feel like a Saturday to me. I'm so used to being at church in the afternoon spending my whole afternoon there. O well, i took this time to chill and relax and spend more time on myself.
So I spend my whole day with my mom and my brother. It was awesome! Its been a while since I last had a chance to do this on a Saturday. 

As I mentioned in my previous blog, I needed a new pair of shoes for running. Hence, I headed to Al-Ikhsan to get a new pair of sport shoes! I could not tolerate with my old pair of shoes anymore so I dragged my mom along with me and went for a little shopping. I bought what I needed and I'm satisfied with it! :)  

I chose Nike over Skechers Shoes. Simply because SgWang does not have any Skechers shop and my mom was lazy to follow me to Sunway Pyramid. 
TADA! :D


Goodbye old shoes.. 


I'm supposed to go for paintball with friends! RWAR! however, because I could not find any girls to go with me, I decided not to go. It'll awkward if I actually join the whole group of guys playing plus I'm not good at it. Surely I'll be bullied by them! I so wanna play it so badly. O well, there's always next time.. 

So, instead of going for paintball, I spend awesome night with my family again! 
I had TomYam Steamboat for dinner! Yum~ I love spicy food. However, I dont usually eat spicy when I am outside with friends. I usually sweat a lot when eating spicy food even if is just a little spicy and I'll look messy. So I decided to not have anything spicy when I am out but when I am home with my family.. I'm ME! hohoho~ <3 



I guess it is a good idea to stay busy when you are missing someone other wise it will take over your mind if you thinking about it all day. I guess I should do things that I enjoy as it will take my focus away from that missing feeling. I shall enjoy my life and don't let it get taken over by these feelings.! rwar~

Till then.. 

Friday (14/9/12)

Hello,

Just another friday. Slept for only 3 hours woke up prepare and head to uni to meet my friends. Today, was so unlucky for friends around me. 2 of my friends got themselves into accident. O man.. anyway, glad that they are okay.

Publika seems to be my favourite hangout place for breakfast/brunch/.lunch. Publika is quite near my uni therefore, me and my unimates love hangout there at times. This time in publika, we found ourselves at The Red Beanbag, a modern contemporary Australian-inspired cafe.

Eggs Atlantic v2.0 

Salmon with scramble eggs! :) 


Beef me up scotty


My order...
Red Beadbag's Specialty Baked Eggs : Eggs cracked into a baking dish of lamb, beef and chicken bratwurst mixed with sundried tomatoes, potatoes and cheese, baked to perfection and served with crusty bread for RM17.90! 
Sinfully delicious, thoughts of getting a healthy start to the day were put aside. 



After the awesome brunch, our initial plan was to head to BENs for dessert! However, due to some reasons, we decided to head back to uni for class. I'm a big time procrastinator in attending classes. Friends can hardly see me in class. :S sad to say, I am a bad influence. 
Anyway, got my business to business assignment 1 marks. And I'm happy with the marks. Lecturer couldnt believe that I could actually score on my assignment. Well, this is because I guess she knows I hardly pay attention in class and I'm always late for classes. The only reason why I am in the class is cause of the 10% participation marks. Or else I would be somewhere else instead or maybe at home sleeping like a boss. Anyway, I want to thank God for the blessing. Without His blessing, I think I would be able to do well in all my assignment. So thank You God. :) <3 

Right after class, I headed to Desa Park City for jogging session with friends! I realize I'm into exercising recently. I love to eat and I always eat sinfully. So I guess I need to torture my own body and I love the feel of it after exercising. :) Pleasure in pain? o man this is bad! Anyway, half way running, my leg got blisters thanks to the shoes. Is so painful right now. So I guess is time for me to get new shoes. Skechers or nike shoes? another dilemma for me to figure out. :X No matter which choice, RM 200 + will still be gone cause of the shoes. I need to work! I need money. :( 

After running, headed to Ikea for MEATBALLS! o MAN! another sinful meal. I am so so so dead. Lucky I ran or else I will be regretting right now. 

DINNER! @.@ 


Right after dinner at Ikea, flew all the way to midvalley just to get 4 packs of caramel popcorn from Planet popcorn! Is all worth. Me and my friend was craving for it and since my small group activity was watching Brave.. So popcorn is awesome snack for it! So i bought 4 for everyone to share during the movie. Yum yum~ I almost doze off during the movie maybe because the quality of the movie is not good enough hence I lost concentration. :S 

My life is a mess right now.. :( I need to GAH! GET BACK MY LIFE IN ONE PIECE.. Feli you need to focus and know what is RIGHT and WRONG.. what to DO and DONT! :( 

till then.. 

Thursday 13 September 2012

Bowling~!

Hello~

Yes MAPCU Bowling Competition! Well, I'm not a bowler! So dont mistaken that I participated! I supported actually. hah! :P If you ask me to go bowling.. I think I'll bowl myself to the lane instead of the ball. #truestory
So I spend my whole afternoon there watching the game. And man.. they are all so professional! I think I f'm interested to know him more. Should I be glad that I know him 2 months ago? :X Oh! He promised me to teach me bowling tho.. haha! Interesting. shall see if he's gonna full fill it. Or I should say am I gonna willing let him laugh at my noob-ness? :S 
So I watched the single as well as the double match. Interesting but can get bored at some point. 
My friends played well.. Proud of them! :) 

Right before the game, I had SUSHI  for lunch! Yum~ Sashimi! I crave for it since like a week ago. So yah! craving full filled! Satisfied now!





 Besides that, I bought myself a water bottle. Its pink from nike! :)
Next I'm gonna look for hand-carry bag! Special for sports! 


Picture of us! (ps : no everyone is in it! ) 
There's around 6 of us there watching the game supporting our friend!

I actually miss seeing him bowl. :S O goodness.. watever...

till then... 

Wednesday 12 September 2012

Stand Firm on God's Truth, not Another's Opinion

by Rick Warren
“It is dangerous to be concerned with what others think of you.” (Proverbs 29:25a GN)
It’s difficult to take a stand for God’s truth when you are overly concerned with what people think about you. When we worry about what other people think, we let them control us. We waste a lot of time and energy trying to figure out what other people want us to be. Then, we waste a lot of time and energy trying to become like that rather than just being what God made us to be.
Worrying about what other people think is dangerous because we’re more likely to cave in to criticism. It means we don't always do the right thing; instead, we do the thing that everybody wants us to do. And what everybody wants to do is often the opposite of what God’s truth compels you to do.
We’re also in danger of missing God's best. We're so worried about what other people want us to do that we can't stop to think about what God wants us to do.
  • Fact #1: You cannot please everybody. Even God can't please everybody. One person prays for it to rain; another prays for it to be sunny. In the Super Bowl, both teams are praying that they will win. Who is God going to answer? God can't please everybody. Only a fool would try to do what even God can't do. You can't please everybody.
  • Fact #2: It's not necessary to please everybody. There is a myth that says you must be loved and approved by everybody in order to be happy. That's just not true. You don't have to please everybody in order to be happy in life.
  • Fact #3: Rejection will not ruin your life. It hurts, sure. It's not fun. It's uncomfortable. But rejection will not ruin your life unless you let it.
Quit trying to please everybody! Remember that nobody can make you feel inferior unless you give him or her permission.
The Apostle Paul says, “If God is for us, who can be against us?” (Romans 8:31 TEV) This means we can think like this: “God likes me, and I like me; if you don't like me, then you have a problem. If God likes me, who cares that everybody doesn't approve of everything I do?”
Remember, nothing you ever do will make God love you less. Nothing you ever do will make God love you more. He loves you completely right now. That kind of confidence boost should give you the courage you need to take a stand.

Burger feast!

Hello~ 

Another awesome day I had. Friend crave for rum raisin ice cream since I don't know when. So I decided to take her to Quan's ice cream house. 

In life, spending time alone or with friends is very electrifying. Some people prefer to spend most of their time alone; others like to be with friends most of the time. For me, I enjoy spending most of my time with my friends. Spending time with friends is chance to share happiness or sadness with each other. The life of people is always both happy and sad. The more we share our happiness with our friends, the happier we are. It was awesome chatting and sharing with her. Nothing can be more relaxing than spending time with babe over an ice cream. :P 
RUM RAISIN! 
Sorry babe, my fav is still Choc! :P 



After awesome lunch session cum ice cream, headed to gym for some workout. I've been eating really a alot recently and realize that I need to be healthy as well. So I've been really hard working getting my lazy ass to gym as often as I can. I need to burn those caloriesss! Is kinda depressing knowing that I love to eat yet I can get fat easily. :( 

Anyway, have you heard of Burger Kaw Kaw? 
Friends told me they sell awesome huge and tasty burger.


I love burger a lot! Like seriously. Especially with juicy patties. YUM~ It was so tempting that me and some of my uni mates decided to head to Taman Puchong Utama to try it. 

TaDa~ My order! Cheese Beef Burger Single with 3 sausages for RM 10!  

Right after the burger feast, decided to head for some dessert. However, we ended up having "lok lok", wantan noodles, asam laksa and some desserts at the Night Hawker Street in Puchong. Today is really a makan day for us. Lucky I managed to spend an hour running and did few sets of abs exercising. Or else I'll be regretting right now. Phew~

Alright, I'm gonna stay up late today for the New Iphone updates! :D Hopefully Apple will come out with some awesome product :D 

till then..

Tuesday 11 September 2012

Unsaid

Hello everyone,

I had a very productive day today. 
Recently, I'm so into badminton and I wish to play like a professional. Unfortunately, it will only be a dream. 
I met Lee Chong Wei today in his Arena! I cant believe that I didnt manage to take photo with him! What a waste. He was busy and I was shy! aiks! Anyway, is okay he's just another human. :P

Recently I'm busy with assignments. Assignment assignment assignment is all I have right now. BUT! Of course I am enjoying life too. Life is not just about studies.. We need to spice up our life with some interesting activities. :)

Some people pass through your life and you never think about them. And there are some you think about, and wonder "whatever happened to them"? Over the course of the average lifetime you meet a lot of people. Some of them stick with you through thick and thin. Some weave their way through your life and disappear forever. But once in a while someone comes along who earns a permanent place in heart. Growing up happens in a heartbeat.

Let's be honest, I can be a really stubborn girl. I find myself reflecting and remembering all that has happened over the past year. It is sort of bitter-sweet since so many dramatic and heartbreaking things have happened to me. But I have had many blessing as well. :) The most dangerous thing is having illusion. I am not going to make myself fall into that. :)
From today onwards, I will try not to post any more emo status on my twitter or facebook. :)
Let the word remain unsaid


Life.. goes on.. :)

Let me share some interesting article that I found on a website. :) 



till then..

Monday 10 September 2012

I'm confused right now

Hello all,

Its been a long time since I last log in to my blogger. I really miss my blogging life like how I used to do it when I'm in secondary school. Blog almost every single day. So, I decided to come back to this wonderful place after few months of inactive on my blog. It's been a while since I really last updated my blog. I feel so incomplete for the past few months or so till now for not updating my blog and I rarely open it since I'm a big time procrastinator as always.

This semester will be my final semester and I'm done! Whats left will be the Final Year Project and I'm off to the real world. I cant wait but at the same time I know I'll miss uni life. Throughout my life in Uni, God blessed me with group of lovely friends. In my university life, every semester I meet different people and I mixed with different kind of people. God blessed me with awesome friends that I'm blessed to have them and I thank God for the blessing. Not just in partying, but in studies and assignments as well. They are great study companion as well as party starter. Due to all these fun and awesome experiences I had in my uni life, I'll definitely miss the freedom I have. O well. Nth goes our way all the time. No pain no gain. :)

There's always ups and downs in life. There are times that I almost give up because of hurtful feelings and I cannot take it anymore. Honestly, until now I don't have any idea why do I feel good torturing myself. I find pleasure in pain.

I guess I am an introvert person when it comes to expression deep feelings. Few people came to me and told me that I should stop keeping problems to myself. People ask whatsup with my life and I aint know how to share my feelings and my thoughts. All I did was smiling back to them and say all is good and I'll divert the attention to somewhere else. I try not to cause trouble/worries/etc to people around me. Some said I changed. Changed in a positive way. Yes I did. But in what sense I really do not know. I know the past taught me a lot.

For the past few weeks, I'm in my denial mode. I need to get myself out or else I'll go deeper and never get myself out. Keeping a distance. I know I am in trouble right now..

At times I wonder what the answer will be.. Or am I doing the right thing.
I wish to have it my way but I know is close to impossible simply because timing is not right and is it definitely not the right thing to do. O well, all I can do now is to surrendering it to God. Ever since the 2 years ago incident, I guess nothing can hurt me more than that.. I believe I am able to go through it. 

Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and that which cannot remain silent


Yeap, I'm confused. :( Left alone with my own thoughts.. and my heart is freaking me out. 
till then..

Monday 9 April 2012

Leehom - 依然愛你 (Still In Love With You)




The twinkling bright lights,
are traces of the passing years
You are still, the center of my world

One year after another,
time flies by in a blink of an eye
The only thing that remain unchanged,
is the fact that there will always be change

I'm no longer the same as before,
and neither are you
However, in my eyes, your smile
is still as beautiful as before

The days can only movie forwards,
in one direction, following time
Not sure how much longer (we'll have),
so I have to let you know

I'm still in love with you
there's no room for retreat
I still treasure
every minute and every moment of happiness
Your every breath,
every move,
and ever expression
Until the very end, (I) will
still love you

I'm still in love with you,
maybe it's fated and destined to be
Even after the passing years,
no one can every replace (you)
Those moments are the best I've had in my life
Those memories,
I still cannot forget

I'm still in love with you,
there's no room for retreat
I still treasure
every minute and every moment of happiness
Your every breath,
every move,
and every expression
Until the very end, (I) will still love you


Your every breath,
every move,
and every expression
Until the very end, (I) will still love you

Saturday 31 March 2012

Some said..

Some said when we learn how to let go of things, we are strong.
Some said when we learn how to let go of things, we are hiding from the fact.
Some said when we learn how to let go of things, we are weak to face the consequences.

No matter how are we try, the little things that happen around us will trigger our emotions our memories. I experience that personally and it sux. I am very emotional kind of person. So it make it worse for me. Yes! WORSE! sad to say.. I wish that my brain is like a computer where we can format or delete things that we wouldn't want to keep any more. Hoping that we can begin new chapter in life. The past is the past. Nothing can be done. Is true that memories hold and remain forever. Suck but thats life. 

This semester is my second last semester. Which means in 8 months time I'll be out in the working world. I cannot imagine myself in the working world. I asked myself, what will I be? Who will I be? Am I going to turn into someone that chase after wealth and power and forget that life is not just about that? It freaks me out knowing the numbers of commitment that is in line waiting for me to commit. I am feeling the burden right now. Being the eldest in the family is not the best thing in life. Yes, you may get respect from the younger ones and to boss them around like a boss.. But, when you're older things changes. The responsibilities are more. I am feeling it right now. I do not know what I should do to become a better a better woman. I always tell myself.. Do not fear mistakes. You will know failure. Continue to reach out. But regrets? BLAH! 

If only my life has a trailer that shows me what's next in my life so
 I will not make mistakes that I'll regret for life. 


till then.. 

Thursday 1 March 2012

Happiness has nothing to do with pleasure

You feel pleasure when you want something and you get it. Or when you don't want something and you remove it. Pleasure is always relative. Happiness is absolute. Happiness is the understanding and acceptance of life as it is in this very moment as completely perfect, because every creation of God is perfect. The degree to which you do not accept life in all of the Divine forms is the degree to which you suffer.

Saturday 25 February 2012

I love you for a thousand more

Stuck in my head

Everyone has a right to be insane

Doing something out of our mind feels awesome. Sometimes we might regret after the actions but we only live once! Why should we care how others think or feel about us? teehee.. 

Was out with my friends for dinner, I don't know what was on my mind. Took friend's ipod and camwhore! 









When I am happy, I see the happiness in others. When I am depressed, I notice that people's eyes look sad. When I am weary, I see the world as boring and unattractive.
Sometimes we miss happiness by looking too far for things that are nearby.

Thursday 23 February 2012

Finally I am Back

After few months not updating any post, I finally took the effort to update.TADA!~
I've been away for awhile. I dont know about you, but I had a rather disturbing time for the past few months. I had ups and downs, laughs and tears, progress and defects. I used to be very active blogger. I miss my old blog. I miss the things that I wrote, the way how I express myself in there which makes me spend sometime on my own to do self reflect with the things I said and done. I never thought I will go through so much in life. I found myself struggling through life the roller coaster that I gone through can never be erase from my memory. Lets just cut everything short and simple for now. I am just going to sum up everything that happened.  



Well, a little update about my life. I finally got myself a DSLR camera which means I can now finally learn and improve on my photography skill. A picture worth a thousand words. I realize that I can no longer express myself through words. Hence, the pictures. :) 


Hello 600D
Good enough for a newbie like me. :) 


For the past few months, Girls' Brigade ministry really took up most of my time. From the company level to the state level to the national level. 


Firstly was the Christmas Musical, 



Christmas in Reverse basically tells the story of how Christmas came to be. This musical starts off at the manger scene where the shepherds, wise men, Mary, Joseph and baby Jesus are gathered. With the choir singing the story in the background, the narrators move on to tell the story of why Christ came to earth. Christmas in Reverse takes us back to the very beginning – the Garden of Eden. There we see how man first sinned and how they were separated from God at that moment. Next, the musical shows the time of Noah and the ark. During Noah’s time, there were many sinful people. God was not pleased with the evil and sinful people and only found Noah and his family worthy to be saved. God told Noah to build an ark and gather 2 of every species of animals. People around Noah and his family thought that he had gone crazy and did not believe him when he said a big flood was coming. Soon the flood came and it rain continuously for 40 days and 40 nights. When the flood was over, God sent the rainbow as His covenant towards the people and as a promise that He shall never again flood the earth. Many years later, Jesus was sent to earth by God through a virgin named Mary, who was betrothed to a carpenter named Joseph. She conceived Jesus through the Holy Spirit and Christ Jesus was born in Bethlehem in a stable.This production had been in planning since early 2011. This production is my first production that I'm involve fully in the organizing committee team. It was really a great learning experience. I used to think that to be part of the committee member, we will first need to be good in something. For instance, acting, singing etc. I'm always shy and I know that I am never good with musics and vocal. I used to dislike joining such things thinking that others will give me the look that I can never accept. I am very concious on how people look at me, judge me or think of me. Is bad I know. But yea that's how I see that group of people. Back to the production. I'm asked to be the stage manager and work with many different people in the church. As stage manager, I will need to know everything that is happening but somehow I felt that I'm always left out. Maybe because of my age and my experience. Nevertheless, I learn really alot through this production. Not just the experience, I build a better relationship with others too. The biggest satisfaction I have is that the girls learn a lot through the musical. Looking at the excitement, the joy and commitment they gave, is all worth it. Lets just leave the grief and dissatisfaction to God and let him decide what and how I should do to improve myself. :) All in all, this would not have been a success without the guidance from Him. We all truly thanked God for His continuous blessings towards the musical. Indeed He has been nothing but a great and faithful God towards us. As Luke 1:37 “For nothing is impossible with God” what we thought was a near impossible feat was made possible.

Next, Fonomarae 2011. 

Let me share my message I wrote on the Fonomarae handbook..

  In 2006, as a senior from 1st Kuala Lumpur Company I attended the 7th Fonomarae.  Today I’m a Warrant Officer and chairing this 8th Fonomarae Malaysia Organising Committee.  During my Senior girl years and from the camp, I learned that being grateful changes me, it brings joy and laughter into my life and into the lives of all those around me.  There’s a quote that says “reflect each day on all you have to be grateful for and you will receive more to be grateful of”.  Be mindful of Romans 12:2 - "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Being grateful and appreciative of someone or something in my life opens the door for me to receive and love others without conditions attached. It actually adds value to my life - my life transformed, His world enriched.  I’ve grown up as a girl meeting different people in the Girls’ Brigade, and now I’m involved in the youth ministry. Seeing the girls fit in and growing in Christ reminds me of the path I once walked through.
Fonomarae is unique to GB only and there was Fonomarae in other countries  like New Zealand, Australia and Zimbabwe. Initially I was very reluctant to take up the position and organize such a big camp. However, after giving some thought, I changed my mind.  Reason is because, such camp does not happen often in Girls Brigade. We hardly have a gathering of more than 300 girls and with international participation as well. Therefore, I do not want the girls to miss the opportunity to experience what I have experienced before, which is the fun, the excitement and the opportunity to know girls from other countries. Therefore I took up the challenge and accepted this task.  This is my testimony. God wants me to share my personal experience with the girls about my life being transformed by Him. Though the responsibilities are heavy but I believe that "I can do all this through him who gives me strength" - Philippians 4:13. Not my will but His be done.
As time passed, I realized how much God has changed me through circumstances in my life. There are many obstacles I faced throughout the years when I’m in Girls Brigade but God cared more about my character than to spoil me with what I think I need in my life. The transformation that God had done made me who I am today and I know He is still guiding and teaching me each day. Through Girls’ Brigade, my life has been enriched from not knowing Christ to knowing Christ as my personal Saviour. I sincerely pray that girls will find an enriched life in Christ Jesus and may you also enjoy this 8th FONOMARAE 2011 to the fullest!  Don’t forget - a life of gratitude.

That's my message to the girls. 

Personally, taking up this camp was really a big calling from God. It was my first time managing such big camp which involve people from Asia countries. It was a challenge to myself. Is really though. Something that I think many will not experience it. I'm glad I took the challenge up and with the support from my good friends, family and my mentor, I am glad that the camp ran smoothly and seeing that the girls enjoyed themselves and have good memories make it all worth it. A smile from them makes me feel that all the pain and bitter moments worth. :) Glory to God


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That's about it. The major event that happened in my cycle of life. 
I shall update more in the next post. 
till then...