Some said when we learn how to let go of things, we are strong.
Some said when we learn how to let go of things, we are hiding from the fact.
Some said when we learn how to let go of things, we are weak to face the consequences.
No matter how are we try, the little things that happen around us will trigger our emotions our memories. I experience that personally and it sux. I am very emotional kind of person. So it make it worse for me. Yes! WORSE! sad to say.. I wish that my brain is like a computer where we can format or delete things that we wouldn't want to keep any more. Hoping that we can begin new chapter in life. The past is the past. Nothing can be done. Is true that memories hold and remain forever. Suck but thats life.
This semester is my second last semester. Which means in 8 months time I'll be out in the working world. I cannot imagine myself in the working world. I asked myself, what will I be? Who will I be? Am I going to turn into someone that chase after wealth and power and forget that life is not just about that? It freaks me out knowing the numbers of commitment that is in line waiting for me to commit. I am feeling the burden right now. Being the eldest in the family is not the best thing in life. Yes, you may get respect from the younger ones and to boss them around like a boss.. But, when you're older things changes. The responsibilities are more. I am feeling it right now. I do not know what I should do to become a better a better woman. I always tell myself.. Do not fear mistakes. You will know failure. Continue to reach out. But regrets? BLAH!
If only my life has a trailer that shows me what's next in my life so
I will not make mistakes that I'll regret for life.
till then..
