Why?!

Heard something which I dont wish to hear.. Saw something which I dont wish to see. I guess until now you still dont know me well enough that what I like and dislike. One word.. Attitude. :) Guess I should not allow it to bother me. O wait.. It didnt cause I know it will happened and my guess was right. :) so yah! :)

If only.. :)

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Aftertodayiamconfusedonceagain.sigh~ No longer know how to express myself anymore.
Been really busy with assignment. Update soon on friday perhaps.
See you peeps! <3

Chillout

Hello,

Assignment is driving me nuts. I don't know what I'm writing, what I'm doing and what I'm thinking. Feel like giving up. First time feeling so worried. :S

Anyway, Half way doing with assignment decided to get out the house to chill with the babes.The girls have yet to try the fried mars and snicker bars from Tom Dick & Harry's Bar so I decided to bring them there. The food there is awesome and filling. There's 4 of us we ordered 2 main course and 1 dessert and we're darn full already. We had great time catching up with each other and talking about some serious stuff. :) Recently I realize that my friends all begin to talk about their future career, future stuff and all. I begin to feel we're a little more mature. :)

There! Our order.

Chicken Mushroom Pie, Fried mars and snicker bars with ice cream & pork burger

After consuming so much of calories, we decided to just throw away our diet plan and go ahead with more calories which is the BEER! We headed to beer factory as the beer there is freaking cheap. We had like more than 10 pints of beers. This is crazy. 

Emotionally I'm done. Mentally I'm drained. Spiritually I'm dead. Physically I smile. that's me.

Weird yet so real

I had weird dream yet I feel is so real. I asked myself, is God trying to tell  me something through it? I wish it was real for certain part and not for certain part. I'm even more confused right now. I already said I am stepping back and pressing on breaks already. Yet why such dream? :( sigh.. This is so disturbing.. :(

Some people come into our lives and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never ever the same

I know what I should do

Whenever I get near, I lose that inner voice that tells me this is wrong and I go through with it all anyway. I hear the blunt truth from everyone, that the same will happen to me. I just can't understand why I have to go through this. I am just so confused and everyone tells me  the same thing..

But today.. 

Today I realize something.. that I should really let go and move on and should not let it bother me anymore. Knowing that the result might not be what I wanted, so why wait? Why so silly? I guess I need to wake up and get back to reality. :)  

I will always remember this quote as it hurts me a lot when someone did something hurtful to me. Therefore, I will try not to hurt anyone on purpose. :)

Always put yourself in the other's shoes. 

If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

I should do whatever I want to do

whydoihavetofeelthisoverandoveragain.thisissotorturing.iaintknowhowtohandleitanymore.allicandoistoignoreandkeepmyselfbusyandputoonasmileandtelltheworldthatiamalright.dontaskmewhybecauseiwillnotansweranyoneofyou.isjustme.soleavemealonemaybe?

Anyway, 

Should I get a second ear piercing right above my first? I'm thinking to get one tho.. 

I might want to go get my second piercing to feel some pain.. Feel like torturing my own body with some pain. My first one I got it when I was very young probably I don't remember that it hurts so why not try the second time and feel it once again. :) I shall find time. I should do whatever I want to do. Do what I want to do and do it for myself. Those are the reasons to make changes in ourselves whether it is having piercing or anything else, it should always be for MYSELF! :) 

BUT WAIT! 

................ I need to think of my future profession. ._. my current ministry. BLAH! 

Every single thing that I want to do especially for my appearance I will need to think of the consequences especially on my ministry. At times I'm really frustrated. To do or not to do. so annoying at times.. ._. But I always tell myself is okay.. Is where I chose to be. whatever it is.. I shall decide soon! Since piercing can be hidden. :P 

till then..